About Coming of the Darkstar

I have been a fan of Final Fantasy IV since the very first time I played it, back in 1992. It was the first RPG I had ever played, and at once something undeniable connected between the game and I. I rented it twice before I finally had enough saved up to buy the game (it took my sister and I six months of saving to get it! @_@). Between the two of us, we must have beaten it a dozen times, and never got tired of it.

Naturally, this story started out as innocent fan art. Everything I am interested in results in a flood of artwork. And from this single picture, things evolved from there.

One of the most wrenching things about the ending of the game was watching the moon leave the Blue Planet’s orbit, and seeing Golbez’s last mental thoughts sent to his brother. “Goodbye…” Something inside me was saddened by the thought that the two brothers who had just found one another would never get to know each other, divided by all that space and darkness. So I drew a fan art dedicated to the two of them, and unknowingly, I had created the character “Ben.”

The more I thought about Golbez, the more curious I became. After all… we knew nothing about the Man of Darkness other than he was Zemus’ pawn and brother to Cecil. Then came the questions. What would a person be like if their mind had been taken at an early age and manipulated to evil, only suddenly to be released twenty-some years later? Slowly, blending this contrasting trait into a person with so much obvious power, I found a very captivating character that became my Golbez. As you can tell, he is the foundation of the whole Darkstar story… and all other projects that followed the writing of this tale.

Even to this day, I am still enthralled with Ben. Writing his character challenges me to see the world in a very different light in order to write through his eyes… while, at the same time, I find my own internal questions and ideas voiced in his words.

It was in 1998 that I chose to start posting my writing on the Internet. And from this story came the projects that span my site at Sygnus.org. The stories and characters of Wayrift, Shimmer and Dreigiau eventually evolved from this first attempt at fantasy writing… which has also undergone many revisions.

So a decade later, I once more thank you for allowing me to share this story with you — a little piece of me that might have remained only an aging notebook in a box under my bed.

~ Aywren

Darkstar Timeline


November 1992 — I rented FFII SNES twice in 1992. I’m pretty certain it was November of ’92 when I plunked down months’ worth of hard-saved cash for this gem of a game. I do believe I had already beaten it before this point. I remember my sister and I beating this one numerous times even after purchasing it.

March 1993 — Though it was nearly a year since I first played FFII, it wasn’t until this point that the most important thing happened. I drew Golbez for the first time without his armor… in what has come to be known his “Ben” personality. I still have this picture… and little did I know at the time how important that one sketch would become. Shortly after Ben was created, I began a set of pencil comics which was the very first version of what later became “Darkstar.” I didn’t get very far into this, of course. Still, I got far enough to create a number of important characters that I still write about — including Chase and Sparrow. I also established Ben’s personality during these comics.

May 1993 — The actual dates for this are ambiguous. But I’ll mark May of 1993 as a point where “Darkstar” was in full swing as an actual piece of fan fiction. Of course, this was long before I had even heard the term “fan fic” for the first time. I have lots of art surrounding the original hand-written draft from this time period — though this version of the story never got past the crash in the Troia forest.

August 1994 — At this point, I had a much more stable feeling for all the characters of “Darkstar.” I had probably stopped writing the fan fic however, and began on a second set of pencil comics for the storyline. It was shortly after this that I stopped writing/drawing for FFII all together. It was nearly four years later before I picked up anything Darkstar related to work on again.

February 1998 — I pulled the old story out of its box, dusted off Ben and began to write again. It was about this time that “Darkstar” got its current name. The original drafts of this story were written by hand and then typed directly into a webpage on my old Geocities account. This was before I had a computer at home or access to any sort of word processor.

May 1998 –I officially released “Coming of the Darkstar” to the public online world. I had created a website for it by this time. I think I opened the site with maybe eight to ten parts posted in full. I found almost instant support on the net for my story… and it spurred me on into writing nearly a chapter a day for the rest of that summer break. Once I went back to school that year, however, writing dropped off as other projects/work began to take up time.

January 2000 — In a massive flurry of writing, I managed to finish the final four chapters of Darkstar over my winter break. I posted the fully finished fic on January 9, 2000.

April 2001 — Darkstar underwent a number of editing sessions after its completion. April of 2001 was the final edit… and it was about this time that I realized I wasn’t half as happy with the overall story as I wanted to be. There was no amount of editing that would bring it up to date to my current writing skills. And it became a frustration that plagued me until that summer when I decided that as insane as it sounded, I needed to completely rewrite Darkstar to be fully happy with it.

January 2002 — This was about the time I actually followed up on what I had decided to do back in the summer of ’01. I began to rewrite Darkstar as a whole.

May 2008 — Ten years after first releasing Darkstar on the net, I finally completed the rough drafts of the final chapters of the rewrite. Though it may seem ponderous to have waited this long, part of me is glad that I have. A number of newer characters (Kip OMEGA, Bradhoc, NaTu) would have never found their way into the main cast or cameos only a few years back. I’ve expanded my knowledge of my world and the characters that live in it so much since I first started to re-write Darkstar in 2002. I know it wouldn’t have the depth that it does now if I had not progressed with the story at the rate I have.

Also, for the first time since Darkstar has been posted online, the site has undergone a complete redesign from the ground up. I’ve transferred the existing chapters to a new WordPress format that I hope makes the site more clean and easy to use!

December 25, 2008 — Darkstar’s newest revision has been posted in full on the net. Story complete!

~Dec, 2008